Absolutely. As I deal with my own struggles I keep returning to and exploring the idea that this is all happening "for me" and not "to me". If that's a truth (I'm still working on my acceptance of that), then I ask "if its the best way it could happen, why is it the best?" I have yet to come up with pithy, witty, narrative answers to that question, but my feelings start wandering in different directions. Not offering this as advice (being an introspectively analytical person as I sense you are, I know I am not the most open to unsolicited advice). I think I'm taking this as an opportunity to remind myself. So, in addition to your writing, thank you for that!