I call this "Pema-ing it" after Pema Chodron. Excellent observations, Tatiana. I quit my job back in May with the intent to take a "Midlife Process Year". I've done some pretty neat things and still have more to do, but am still struggling with feelings of selfishness about my choices. Thanks for your writing and perspective. P.S. - I just got hit with COVID a few days ago, so I can really sympathize with your husband's mental state.